Sometimes, I see glimmers of hope like this is all going to be ok. And I smile and laugh and act like everything is fine, and for a little while I believe it. That this is all going to work out and be something good again.

And then there are times that I don’t feel like that at all. And it knocks me off my balance internally and I feel like I just don’t know if I can let go because my heart never really wanted to. It’s just difficult, head versus heart, one always trying to outscream the other. And I just want to know that I’m doing the right thing here, giving you what you need, and trying to be myself and be happy too. It’s just hard.

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2. orange-spots reblogged this from beatlemania and added:

   can’t even start with how bittersweet

3. brashandhopeful said: Breathe. One step at a time. :)
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